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Hello,

I realize how much I have an emo-bipolar personality. I have this  really SOUPAR serious side...and yet I have  a really joking side. I guess it depends on how much sugar I had that day.

Anyways, I tend to put my really serious side on this online xanga, with these melo-drama yet somewhat corny entries.

Well here's another corny entry for the people who read this (I have no idea how many people read this...I'm guessing 5 or less?)

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currently, there are two things that make me smile throughout the day:

(1) dancing, and learning how to dance...

(2) memories...

Yep, if you see me laughing while i'm biking to class, that's probably because i'm remember something really funny...

In fact, if you ever see me smile, you can assume that I am just remembering the good times with all my friends.

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and I just wanted to thank you all

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thank you for inviting me out with your friends whenever you went out,

thank you for teaching me how to surf and skate,

thank you for always laughing at my jokes even when im not joking,

thank you for always eating with me at stanford,

thank you for always smiling and saying what's up,

thank you for driving me to tustin, even though you had somewhere to go,

thank you for covering me for my meals, even though i had money!,

thank you for the free music! i always listen to it~!

thank you for being my roommates~!

thank you for coming out to concrete canoe meetings

thank you for always giving me a ride when i needed one

thank you for playing smash brothers with me

thank you for getting me out of jury duty

thank you for learning how to dance with me!

thank you for the dog piles

thank you for eating with me at pippins

thank you for bringing me to the phillippines and singapore

thank you for the cool birthday gift

thank you for the keychains!

thank you for listening to me when I felt I had no one to go to

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finally, thank you for just being present and smiling in my life..

I know some of these thank-yous are vague and can refer to anyone...but there are some only some people will only understand!

well, that was probably the most corniest entry I have written! stay tuned for more semi-emo entries!

Sometimes, the baby just has to touch the candle

Life just has to be experienced sometimes

No matter how much you hear people that tell you not to do this, or tell you not to do that, you have to do it yourself to find out. Then tell yourself, no regrets, because you were curious, and that's who you are.

Currently Listening Because Of You By Ne-Yo see related

music is suppose to inspire...

Currently Listening The Cool By Lupe Fiasco see related

It's one of em days ^^

Currently Watching Lost - The Complete First Season By Matthew Fox, Evangeline Lilly, Terry O'Quinn, Josh Holloway, Dominic Monaghan see related

getting LOST was never this fun...rebuilding an antfarm

I'm slowly becoming a TV-junkie, as I begin picking up new shows I told myself I would never watch!

Two weeks ago I started watching LOST season 1...and man is it good! Just hearing about the synposis of the story isn't attractive, but after you watch a couple of the episodes it's not that bad.

*sigh*

My ants are slowly dying. They much were healthy before. They were super active, building lots of tunnels, exploring the outdoor park, and running really fast back and forth. But during Christmas break, I had to move them around because I wouldn't be able to stay in my apartment to take care of them. As a result, the moving led to a bunch of shaking and earthquakes... their tunnels collapsed. Some ants got trapped but a majority of them got stuck in a plastic hole. I got them out by inserting a mini Q-tip "ladder" so they can crawl out of the plastic hole. Alot of them already died and all the tunnels are gone. My roommates say its over for them. I can see why

I don't know what people get out of TV shows especially from LOST, but sometimes this show makes me think what if the unexpected happens? Y'know, something that you didn't PLAN for. What if you get into a car crash and have a serious back injury? an unexpected child? a plane crash on an uncharted island that is controlled by the "others"?

As for my ants, their lives are like the people on LOST. While people are stuck on an island, my ants are stuck in plastic ant farm with fake sand. They cannot escape. I'm pretty sure they'll die on the antfarm. And to top it off, an earthquake just destroyed their home, killing most of their sand tunnels  

What if something similar happens to you? What will be the first thing you do? wouldja panic? wouldja give up perhaps? lose hope? Certainly, I would tell myself, "my life is over!" Then I would pity myself and keep telling myself "I am the tragic hero of the story of my life... It's not my fault, I couldn't do anything..." 

The remaining ants climb out of the plastic hole. And regardless what happened to the ant farm, they continue to live. They just keep building. They just start digging out new tunnels. Did they feel sorry for themselves? I don't know. Maybe they did, but they just keep digging regardless...

Then we realize, we are humans,...and we can adapt. Life does go on for us too. There is no tragedy...

The mind can be such a dangerous thing. It can interefere your hope by saying some things are impossible or not even worth living for.

Yet we'll always have our hearts...